It's all gone. All of it. All 181 entries. An hour and a half. That's how long it took to delete them all.

I may revert to my private diary. If you're interested in reading, let me know. You can read my much less personal livejournal if you're interested.

Bottom line, I hurt someone very badly ... and I hate myself for it. I don't even know how much longer this entry will be up here - I've asked Andrew to delete this account. It needs to be gone from my life.

You know what the hardest things to delete were? The entries from this summer, when I was just falling for a certain boy named Gabe. It's hard to delete such happy moments because of all the symbolism : it's like I'm deleting them from my LIFE (don't worry, I saved them on my harddrive).

I'm in therapy. I'm trying to make myself ok. I can't have this here anymore. E-mail me. IM me. Call me. I'm not disappearing off of the face of the earth, nor off the face of the net. Just from Rabbet.

Goodbye.

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